Are we Nuts??

Don't answer that in the comments section.

This morning I woke up suddenly with the audacity and foolishness of this whole idea looming largely in the rear-view mirror.  It is a distraction from going forward.  I wish I could talk to Serge and have him tell me that it will be good, the way he usually does.  But he can't because we are in "black out".

Last night Maggie and I watched Apollo 13 because it had been well over a year since I have seen it, and I don't like to go too long.  I think it is one of the greatest movies ever made.  How they make it suspenseful when you walk into the theatre knowing the ending, amazes me.  I don't know what year it was filmed in but it was before special effects were the only thing people cared about.  There is no loud music except the orchestral swell in the climax.  No flashing from scene to scene.  During the "black out" in the movie, there is silence.  The camera pans, not flits, to show the faces of the people in the room waiting to hear if there will be voices from the men.  There is a still suspense.  And when they make it, I cry, every time.

Anyway, suspense is what I feel today.  This little "souveneir" from their trip?  How is she going to fit into this life I already feel that I can't manage?  What is re-entry going to feel like?
Shakey at best - and loud - with a splash down sure to bring nausea and relief all at the same time.

Making Room for Ellie

Some pictures of our evolving life ....

Yesterday Maggie and Julia made cupcakes for the "welcome home" dinner and I worked on some floor pillows for the girls' room. 

As we were snapping pictures I thought "Oh wow!  I always wanted one of those blog posts that looked like this!" 

 

You know the ones where people post all of the amazing things they make out of stuff from their recycing bin?  I was being very impressed with my idea of taking the pillows from the guest bed (it is no more, but that is not a hint) and using them as snuggling, reading, climbing pillows for Julia and Ellie's room.  After I had finished two of the covers, I discovered that they were actually too small for the pillows that I had.  No problem - I will just make the pillows smaller (sort of Depret-Guillaume size them - which is the opposite of super-sizing).  This was easier to do with the fiber fill pillow than the three down ones.  Frankly, it looks like we butchered chickens again in the backyard, but they are done!

We are collecting a lot of duplicates ...

 

I have been praying that while we are making all of these physical adjustments, our hearts are making room for Ellie.  I feel like James and Serge have a head start on that compared to us.

We had our last conversation with Serge and James this morning - until they are back with us in person.  Tonight they will begin their very, very long journey home.  Leaving their hotel at 8:30am their time to arrive home at what will feel like 11:30 am the following day.  Twenty-seven hours of traveling is a long trip - even if you weren't bringing a toddler.

 

This was from today's conversation.  Serge wasn't looking that bad until he started talking about how many hours Steve had been working for him these past 2 weeks.  I had been avoiding answering his questions about how busy they had been in his absence.  This is what he looked like when I told him how many people Steve had been seeing each day.

We expect them to land at the airport at 10:40p.m.  I was hoping it would be earlier in the day and we could have a party there.  You are still welcome to come and see them, but I realize most of our friends are in bed by that time.

More Pictures

Just pictures tonight as my words are all used up today!

Ellie after a bath.  I did not post the pictures of the previous discussion between the two guys over whether or not she still smelled after the last diaper change.....

All dressed.

And...

she's out!

So am I tonight! 

To all of the people who have emailed, or called, or facebook messaged, or written ... I am so sorry for not responding yet.  Thank you for being interested in our lives - we are humbled - really, truly humbled!

Photos from China - at last.

According to Maggie most people only want to look at photos on your blog. 
Hmm?  I think that is simply the visual person that she is that thinks so, but just in case, I will put up these random photos that James finally sent, along with the tidbits of information I have picked up in our Skype conversations.

This is Ellie waiting for her doctor's appointment.

 

Lunch and Skype for the guys - Ellie is napping. 

The three of them somewhere in Guangzhou.

A sign on the Great Wall!  The boys just thought this was really funny.

This is the worm James found in his yogurt one day.  Every day for lunch they have a couple of yogurts each that they grab from breakfast along with the packed snacks from America.  I am not sure if he ate around this or not, but next day he was still eating the yogurt, so I guess it did not bother him too much.

These are the worms you can buy for medicinal purposes.  Serge says they are supposed to be good for your lungs, but they are very expensive.  (I think he was thinking about buying them....)

I don't really have a story for this one.  I suspect James took it to show Maggie.  But since there are so few pictures I'll leave it there anyway.

This is Helen who is their guide in Guangzhou.  She has taken them shopping and to a couple of museums as well as helping with all of the adoption paperwork there.  They have had really good experiences with all of the guides for which we are quite thankful.

I know, difficult to see, but so cute.  This is Ellie looking up through the glass desk while we were skyping the other day.

 

Tomorrow they are going to adventure to the zoo on their own.  They are getting to eat plenty of western food now - about every other day - in Guangzhou.  Apparently there is a very good brick oven pizza place - they enjoyed the first pizza so much that they ordered a second one.

All of the Chinese comment that Ellie has "big eyes".  Helen thinks she may have some Indonesian in her because her hair is more brownish than black as well.  She looks Chinese to me, but I have not seen her in person.  Just interesting to think about.  I wonder how important that will be to her when she grows up?  I never thought it important to myself.  Then again, I do not have the question marks attached to my life that Ellie will inevitably have.

As of yesterday, they have finished the adoption paperwork such that when they land in the Chicago O'Hare airport, Ellie will officially be a U.S. citizen.  Now they are waiting for the U.S. visa so that they can bring her home.

I am sorry that this is so fragmented and random but that is kind of how our conversations are.  Also I can only work with the pictures that they send me, however odd they may be?!  I have two more posts "in my head" that I hope to get time to put here soon.  The picture loading takes a long time and we are busy, busy, busy trying to finish those lists before they get back home!

Joseph

We know very little about Joseph, husband of Mary, beyond his lineage and his profession.  He is mentioned by name three times in the gospel of Matthew.  Every time it plays out the same way.  God tells him something and he acts on it.
Matt 1:24-25 "When Joseph woke from sleep, he did as the angel of the Lord commanded him; he took his wife, but knew her not until she had borne a son; and he called his name Jesus."
Matt 2:13-14 " .... an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, 'Rise, take the child and his mother, and flee to Egypt, and remain there till I tell you; for Herod is about to search for the child, to destroy him.'  And he rose and took the child and his mother by night, and departed to Egypt..."
Matt 2:19-21  "...when Herod died, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared in a dream to Joseph in Egypt, saying, 'Rise take the child and his mother, and go to the land of Israel, for those who sought the child's life are dead.'  And he rose and took the child and his mother and went...."

It does not appear that he spent a lot of time hashing out the decisions with friends and the Bible gives no indication that he and Mary debated the wisdom of these moves.  It looks like: God called - he went.

Serge is a do-er not so much a talker (unlike his wife).  It is easy to miss the power of his faith because there is so little discussion of it.  I have been thinking for some months about Joseph because Serge has reminded me of him so much in this act of going to China.  Joseph was called by God to raise a child as his own that wasn't his own.  Serge too.  When I wavered (often as the years went by) on this idea of adoption, he held firm.  Not insisting, but with words like "I don't know, Stewart, if we don't go through with it, I feel like we are leaving her".  That remark made years before we were assigned a specific child or had seen a photo.
I can get frustrated when he won't engage me in my angst about the logistics or prudence of a situation: "What about this? What about that?"  But it really doesn't appear that those types of questions are particularly biblical.  Sure, we are to pray for wisdom and "..in an abundance of counselors there is safety", but when you believe God gives you a direction, you best just go. 

Many people disagreed with this decision to adopt; some were forthright, most were subtle.  It is okay, we love you anyway.  On our last "date night" before the guys left for China, we discussed the complete lunacy of the whole thing.  We feel too old!  We understand the misgivings. 

Next day though, Serge rose and went to China.

Food!

Tonight Maggie and I will be enjoying dinner from my friend Valerie.  This was just a lovely, lovely suprise on a dreary, rainy day.  Thank you, thank you!!  That act perked us up so much that Maggie went out to the paint store to plan another project for herself!

We spoke with Serge, James and Ellie this morning briefly.  They looked happy to be in Guangzhou.  James in particular was feeling mighty good as they found an Italian restaurant right near their hotel!!!  We all know what that means ... the pasta fast is over!!! 

 You can almost see the contentment on their faces.

I forgot to ask if Ellie ate any pasta.  I will let you know, because not eating pasta might change everything.  :)

Five more days until they are back on U.S. soil!

Next Stop - Guangzhou

This is a little series of Ellie falling asleep on Serge's shoulders.  It was just as I described before.  She was sitting up there looking around, then started looking a little floppy, then put her head down on his head and was out.

They are getting ready to head to Guangzhou tonight.  Other than trying to pack it all up and not lose anything, I think they are looking forward to the next leg of the adventure.  In Guangzhou they will have a medical exam (a bit redundant since she has been with a doctor for the past 5 days), and obtain her U. S. citizenship among other things.  Since the American consulate is there, the whole place is a bit more westernized in it's culture.  They are more likely to find people who speak English well and food that feels a little more like home.

We put up Ellie's crib tonight.  Julia seemed okay with it all.  She is notably more flexible than her mother.  She wanted to sleep in it, but since one of the pieces is M.I.A., that will have to wait.  I was so thankful for the help of the Nortons.  It is not so much that the job was hard, but I had been putting it off for some time.  I think in part because I do not like change and I have always loved Julia's room the way it was.  More so though because it is the ending of its own little era - the "we have Julia but not yet Ellie" era.  Anyway, I was thankful for friends to help physically and emotionally.